Phillipians 4:19-20
And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of His Glory in Christ Jesus. To our God and Father be Glory forever and ever. Amen.
Andrew and I began discussing this on Saturday night. It continued on through Sunday morning. One fear that I had lingering in the back of my mind is ... but I NEED protein. I have low iron. If I don't have protein then I get shaky and anemic. I don't feel good and ... I get grumpy.
Then there was the thought of... just fruit and veggies!! What if I want sugar. What if I crave chocolate? What if I need coffee?
Then there was the ever lagging fear... the one that is in the back of my mind all the time... it sneaks up on me before I start something new ... the one that says... what if I can't do it.!
I know in my heart these fears are satan talking to me. You see... I am starting to see the negative effects that sugar and processed food has on my body. It isnt pretty folks. I have headaches all the time. I am getting quite jiggly in some areas. I can't fit in to pants I could fit into when we got married a year ago. My skin is horrible. My hair is no longer healthy and thick, rather it is thin and even brittle at times. My skin breaks out worse than it ever has in my life. It is time to make a change.
Well just as these fears are lingering in my head, before I have even voiced them to my husband... this still small voice sang in my ears... "My God shall supply all thy needs... according to His Riches in Glory!" How many times have I heard that song and not listened? How many times have I heard that verse and not listened? I am told over and over in the Bible that God will take care of me. Through Him I can do this.
This has also brought up an interesting point in my life. My day is centered around what I will be eating. What will I have for breakfast? What will I have for lunch? What can I make Andrew for dinner? Ohh lets have a snack. If friends come over I MUST fix something delishious. If we need to have a discussion... it is better if there is food between us. If I'm sad I want to eat. If I am happy I want to eat. If I am lonely I want to eat. If I am with friends I want to eat... this must stop now!! My life is not about the food I eat... it is about the one who created the food for me to eat. And just as easily as he created it for me... He can take it away.
Jesus -
Hold me when I get scared. Lift me up when I am weak, physically, emotionally and spiritually. Please father, make my life not about what I am eating, but about WHO I am serving.